The doctor "diagnosed" me with eleven things. She was very excited and thought I should be gratified to have so many diagnoses, since she recognized my difficulty in obtaining care from previous doctors. I wasn't impressed, though, when I saw that all of her "diagnoses" were just fancy clinical names for the symptoms she focused on in the appointment (not by any means my most annoying ones or even the ones that could be considered definitive of my case). I have four or five different kinds of headache and "dry eye" and a painful point on the back of my head. I'm still really annoyed that these things are considered "diagnoses" if a doctor writes them down on my chart but if I list them they are just "symptoms".
Anyway, she ordered some blood work (that will be negative, because it is the same basic stuff every doctor orders and I've been just fine on all those metrics) and, more importantly, an MRI that I scheduled for next week Thursday. I'm not looking forward to it at all--being claustrophobic and, worse, so sensitive to drugs that I react for hours to dilation drops I can hardly wait to see what kind of reaction I get to the radioactive contrast dye they inject me with. At least my husband is going to come with me so I don't have to think about driving home and he'll be in town if I have some later reaction that requires care.
It took me all weekend and a long coffee date with my confessor on Monday even to begin getting over the emotions riled up by the appointment. It was a long week altogether with annual summer medical/dental visits for both my girls on top of the regular kids' activities and my own healing visits. I've spent this week, so far, crashed in my bed, napping and reading trashy novels. And weeping with anger at how exhausted I am.
I am really hoping that whatever is going on in my head will be glaringly obvious on the MRI so that a diagnosis will be clear and I can dispense with all this traipsing from doc to doc, hearing only, "well, you must be perfectly healthy because your tests all came back normal."